Milkshake

2005-11-15T18:30:00.000-08:00

yoh..
hmm.. life is great now..
kind of..third week of holis..
fast too fast..
hmm.. i was suppose to go holiday today..
sadly no tickets.. i went to the library instead..
its like whoa first time in many years..
not because i dunno theres such a place called the library..
i hate reading so i dun bother to go library or bookshops..
but sudden change well not really a very sudden one..
simply i need to improve my english
or i will just be laugh at wif my awful english..
borrow like four bks..
the clay marble
the jade bangle
penny for a pauper
more ghost of singapore =]
starting wif sad stories..except for the ghost one..
i like sad stories..
it makes me know that i m much much more fortunate than others..
n i should stop critizing myself...
ya hm...somemore vcds
hmm. i watch hitch.. funny n nice..
n ya moving targets.. can bet no one noes this show..
it wasnt even in box office in hk anyway..
but i thought it was nice..
BUT sad ending again.. the "hero"[not really hero lah] died..
watch love battlefield on tv on sunday..
the show was boring but i was bored..
ahha best of all kenny was in the show..small part though..
yah the ending was crap yah..in fact the storyline was quite rubbish..
they make the bad guys soo poor thing..-_-"
hmm.. channel U shows nice hk movies sometimes.
hee... my favorite..i haven got my death curse yet..!!!
hiy.. hmm back to maple again.. lvl 18 now..
woot.
but still slow.. 12 lvls away for lvl 30!
bye GTG..fanfic time.

2005-10-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

i nv retain =]=]=]
hehe.. two more years till i graduated!!
ahaha..but i m sick now..
i got flu =[
hahah ytd i bake brownies wif my cuzsin..
its was yummy everyone like it =]
hhahah..
its pre mix though..hahah
play cheat..
next i shall bake cake..hahah
lol..hmm maple can work alr..yay..!
thanks to my cuzsin he fix it for me..
BUT BUT BUT they close my jeanified acc..
wanted to del it actually cuz stats added wrongly..
but all the things there wanted to pass to my new acc..
now all gone =[
haha maybe should make new one.. orange-addict??
hahah hmm i still love bowman soo much..
i play bowman hor nv get to 2nd job..
always got exams..see the govt put so many exams...
ahahah than will close my acc ..when i back to play
so far close three of my acc..
at least i create two at one time.. brownmix =]]..
lucky the last one still working haha. =]

2005-10-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

I M USELESS..
STUDY OS NO USE
CANT DO WELL ONE
STOOPID AH..
I SHALL STUDY TILL I CANNOT..
THAN I WONT BE THAT STOPID..
AT THE MOST CAN PASS.
ONCE A PC FOREVA A BRAIN OF PC.
WHICH IS LOUSY KIND..

2005-10-19T15:50:00.000-07:00

results back..
happy?
sadly i m not..
didnt do that well..
hmm.. even though i pass my overall..
but theres still the term 3 marks which is -_-
hiy.. i may retain..i DUN WAN!!
HIY HIY HIY..
GOD HELP ME PLS
I DUNWAN TO RETAIN.
hiy.. nv expect marks to be that bad..
hiy hiy why didnt i study more..
hiy dun wan to say alr. bye!

2005-10-18T21:45:00.000-07:00

boo.. havent blog for ages
ok how life erm bad?
maple doesnt one to work for me
ok results tml
ok gd or bad? will see tml
in some trouble again
hiy.. when will i change back to the more guai jeanne?
next yr?
or nv? hiy..
well sunday was the day i felt the real me
i was helping at the blood donation booth..
the bone scan part.
hmm i was in all smiles despite the hitting n stuff
its crowded yah..but i had fun wif celest erm for awhile
more with daphne
n i m not going ym anymore
its dead boring boring
maybe next week will be the last.
car wash the next next week
food sale the next next next week
hmm.. after tat i may go on holiday..
maybe onli?
hiy.. i wan to have fun..
i love being alone but i still do wan company at times
hee.. i m contradicting again..
haha hiy.. life is bad in pc..
life in pl was better but still bad..
life during exam was stressful
life after exam is worrying abt results
life after results? i hope its happy.
its been long time since i have been really happy.
slp has not be good at all this yr.
sure some ppl may agree.
sch has been horrible to me..
i wish i could just finish my sec 4
i hate sec life alot..
well its suppose to be fun
but not for me in pc for 21/2 years is horrible..
i wanna forget everything thst happen there.
two terms in pl sucks too!
i hate where i m now..
i wan to go back. its just a simple wish.
its so hard to get why?
i dunno i wan everything to go nice but why doesnt it?
n i hate my bro.. hes not nice yah..
maybe cuz i m naughty..but i dun wan to be so naughty
anyone understands me!!!?
i dun tink so..
i m in anger now n why?
cuz lifes is bad n haven been good this year
i look depressed
i m sad no one can help
they even think i m mad..
transfer still like that
u aint me u dunno wad i have to go thru this whole year
self pity?
yeah.. so theres no one to pity me anyway
shit thoes idiots in the GO.
i hate u.. u cuz me unhappiness
everytime ppl ask me how i m?
my ans is always i m fine.
why should i tell them they are tired of listening..
RITE?
i hate myself.. i m a burden to ppl..
i hate it.
i wan to have fun be happy
its so hard..!
WHY! WHY! WHY!
I HATE EVERYONE
BACK TO SCH TML..
ppl tink i m mad n weird
or out of my mind..
lifes shit.. everyone finds me weird.!

2005-10-10T15:50:00.000-07:00

hello!!!!!!!!!!
LAST PAPER TML MAN...
SOO DAMN HAPPY..!!
HAHAHA!
hmm.. todaes was quite easy..fun to do =]
hmm..wad else..
i dun like my blogskin. n those are blogskin.com
i shall make my own one.. only if i knew..
my tagboard is not working..!!!
i shall chnge to flashbox..needs cool stuff
my links will be empty..
i got frens k..just that they have blog nv blog..
got blog put pw , cannot go in..some no blog.
THERES NO SCH ON WED..WHEE!! MARKING DAY.. =]
HAHAH...I M GETTING HIGH..
GETTING ADDICTED TO FAN FIC N MORE AMINES
now got mai hime 2nd series [mai otome]
but diff story alr.. but got some same chracters..
there no MAI!! lol..n MIKOTO-CHAN..n ARIKA...
hahah but still quite nice lah..

2005-10-08T21:45:00.000-07:00

long time nv blog..
but no one reads anyway..
hiy.. two more papers..
n i m in play mode..
why?!? i m dying to play..
hmm.. chemistry i m forgetting things leh..
f&n i oso dunno wad to do..
wadeva lah.. cant wait for tue..
i dun wan to attend sch after exams ends..
life there is lonely..
theres hardly anyone to talk to..
in fact no one.
i m alone in the dark..
even on msn.. no one talks to me..
why? cuz they dun have anything to say..
i m alone.. thats all i noe..
i feel like crying..
why wont they call me or talk to me for no reason..
i wan to know that i come to their minds at times..
=[ i m sad.. no one remembers me..
i m all alone..

2005-10-04T16:25:00.000-07:00

boo!!
yay!!
eng p2 and ss today..
i think i did quite okay =]
hee.. so glad..so glad..
six papers down..
six left..bio tml..
chinese - thur
maths p1 and p2 - friday
chem - mon
f&n - tue.. =]
end liao!! ahahha..=]

2005-10-03T17:40:00.000-07:00

i nid someone to talk to now..!!
i m getting tired..
i keep dreaming that i would fail..
i really dun wan to fail..
arrr.. i wish someone was here...
i m stressed!
first day of exam is over..
geog was okay..
lit was fine..
eng p2 and SS tml..
gotta do well..
but i still feel worried
even i study as much as i could alr..
was the talk today to encourage or discourage me??
its kinda discouragin me..
no one noes me best except my parents..
rite now in ppl's eyes i m failing and falling down in studies..
i will loudly say I M SO NOT FALLING..
i m soo fine i aint stoopid..
i m just rather lazy and this year has just been shit..
tired of answering this questions..
"why u tranfer sch??"
"why u dun like pc?"
i answer million times...i hate pc i cant study there..cuz i m not happy there..!!
simple answer needs to be repeat million times..
arrrrr... i just wan to finish my o lvl n out i go
i wont come back ever again..yah thats me i dun go back to my past..
its hurtful n horrible..
life doesnt go my way.. i will make it go by force.
arrrrr..!

2005-10-01T17:50:00.000-07:00

boooooooooo..!
i m studying my geog
last min one..
test on tourism
industries
map reading..
upon 50..
hiy...all i have to say is..

I HATE GEOG TO THE CORE..

2005-10-01T13:45:00.000-07:00

boo.. ytd my blogskin got prob.. than i nv blog..
ahah anyway exams are in two days time..
relax or worried??
half half..
ahhah i will just do my best and yah..
hee.. in two weeks time.. i will be free..
hahah thats if results come back good..
hee.. ok i dunno and dun have anything else to blog..
so yah.. will blog after exams.. or maybe..
during exams i may blog.. bye!

2005-09-29T16:15:00.000-07:00

going sch is a waste of time..
cuz we dun revise at all
revise oso not revise..
soo waste time lah..
might as well study at home..
i dun care if my attendance is poor
i m like that for this year..
i m problematic ever since last year..
i will change next year..
i dun like being naughty.. its very paiseh..
but i cant change wad has happen..
all i can do is study and revise..
so if sch is not revising..
wad for waste 6 hrs there??
when i can study up two subjects...
thango sch waste 6 hrs.. than come home soo tired..
start super late waste more hrs..
so going sch at this time is waste time..!
dun u agree???

2005-09-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

boo.. back to school..
had my eng and chi paper one
soo fun.. to have exams
cuz no lessons ahhha..
soo fun.. i tink i did quite well.
eng was easier than chi hee..
i did shi han instead..
cuz i seriously didnt understand the gong han question.
i kinda screw up a bit for chi.. i forgot the format of shi han..
cracking my brain to remember..
i had a weird dream ytd...
hiy i cant remember where was i..
some weird place..
i broke smth with force.. n i was faking i didnt
haha i walk away leaving someone to figure out hu did it..
hahahha soo lame.. yah i broke smth before..
n i had a fear of breaking stuff aftertat...
hahah.. back home now.. i studied abit of lit..
hahah i m soo tired...i wan to slp slp..hee!
n i miss maths mock exam..how can!!!
hiy tml must remember to get a copy for tch..
than must try at home..
after today's exam i tink i can do well in the whole finals..
cool. As and more As.. hahah..lolz
woohoo.. off to slp for one hr.. i nid slp..
hope i get a nice & sweet dream..heh heh..

2005-09-23T23:40:00.000-07:00

boo!
11.30pm now...
ooo blogging at this time..
i m tired...
haha like always
hiya todae nv study alot..
why..cuz of my tiredness..
i slp alot yet i still feel slping..
slp 10 hrs.. can only stay awake for 6 hrs
than i m back in bed for the next 3 hours
had tuition just now -yawn yawn yawn-
hiy.. wads wif me...
i feel sick... head hurts
stomach too...heart too..

hiy...i m scared.. exams coming...
but i wish it ends soon..so i will -get thru the next mountain..-
my life has been like mountains the past few months
-life's too short to bother abt unimportant stuff.-

sooo bored of life...
wads keeping me in this world..??
MY family..
MY frens..
MY dream.. i want to get into design school..
i have not take my o lvl.. [ weird heh..? hu on earth wants to take olvl.. heh heh ME!]
i haven experience poly life yet..
i m still single...haven had the taste of love yet..
AND most importantly..
i haven serve God yet..tats why i m still in this world.

exam is on monday...eng and chi paper one..
wish me all the best..

been reading fanfic.. thanks to rachel..
its interesting nv knew there was such a website..
ppl wif such imagination...they can go be scriptwriters next time.

2005-09-22T17:00:00.000-07:00

boo..at church now blogging this
had english oral just now
last person again..
but fun to be ahah cuz u get to be the last person
hahaha lol bo liao
ok i m sitting here while my dad tries to print smth..
soo mafan blocking my way..
he oso dunno say wad cuz i call him than he rush here
hahah chattin now...
later maybe nid to study chem..
hiy todae in sch tch keep calling me..
i super scare to get in trouble
i cant stand te prefects
they should just die lor..
except cheryl n church ppl hu are prefects lah..
soo bored now..
type finish alr.. nth to type alr bye!!

2005-09-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

boo.. forget abt ytd's post..
its crap..hiy... ok back to study mode
should not even bother abt wad ppl say..
i get on wif my life..
then jus crap like they noe wads wif i m going thru...
hiy.. whee.
my time planner is kinda working =]]
i m happy.. i can do it...but of cause theres still fear of retain..
dun wan to waste three years leh...
precious times.. happy days ahead man..
draw draw draw can earn money xia!!
ahhah ok tats all bye!

2005-09-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

I HATE PC...
I HATE PL MORE..!
PL IS FILLED WIF HEARTLESS CREATURES...
HEARTLESS TCH ESP...
I HATE TODAE...
REALLY HATE IT.. I SHOULD NOT HAVE GONE SCH
I SHOULD NOT HAVE TRANSFER
THERES NO DIFF.. IN FACT ITS WROST...

I WISH O LVL WILL HURRY COME..
I JUST WANT TO GO POLY..
ITS SOOOO MUCH CAREFREE..
NO STOOPID RULES..
NO STOOPID TCHS..
HU NOE NTH BUT SHIT..!SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT...!
NO STOOPID SUBJECTS..!

I CAN JUST DO MY FAV THING
BE WAD I WAN TO BE...
ENJOY MY LIFE WIF MY LOVE ONES..!

I CANT STUDY IN PEACE...

2005-09-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

arrrrr...
chi oral was today..
it was okay..
make a few fumbles hahah..
but its over..sooo happpy!!
lol english on thur =]
it would be much easier...hee!

2005-09-17T22:35:00.000-07:00

SHIT!

9 days to first paper

15 days to start of exam

wad should i do?!?!?!

2005-09-15T18:50:00.000-07:00

back to blog..
yah f&n prac today...so-so onli..
yts watch this show..
n jon leong was in the show...
hes funny k...lol maybe cuz i noe him!!
hahha lol.. his lips soo red...lipstick...lol
haha yah... i failed to get up at 4am..hiy..
bio test was er....
tml last day of the week..
two weeks left...hiy...

2005-09-13T19:40:00.000-07:00

late for sch today..
yah...
sch was okay..
crowded as usual
i cried in sch..
hiy.. i became hyper after that..
i m mad..
bio test tml..
n i m going to slp now.
wake up later n study at 4 am!
ahha..not jking..

2005-09-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

back to sch..
er... sch was okay..
hmm.. one more day down
half a day more like it..
going to study later..
BIO BIO BIO..
HIY...
tonite go chi tuition again...=[
hiy... lazy lazy
chi is kinda boring..
when u are doing repeated chpts...

2005-09-10T21:40:00.000-07:00

SHE MEETS HIM..
SO CUTE - moves his ears-
its blur...yah i noe...

SCARY...!
BUT SOO SWEET OF HER...
its clearer =]

2005-09-10T15:15:00.000-07:00

BIO BIO BIO>>> iS uBer HORRIBLE
hiY...
wHy wHy thIs suBjeCt...the moSt no hoPe sUb...

MATHS... goSh 11 chPts...ooooo cAn i maKe it..?

CHINESE..arrrrrrr...PAPER 1 HOW...??

ENGLISH..h0w h0w h0w...the moSt IMPT SUB...
iF faiL dIe liAo....

PURE LIT...reMinDs mE of enGliSh...
NEW SUB OSO...bUt caN a n0t..? I NOT SURE..

SS/GEOG... WAH!! get C6 happy alr AH!

CHEM CHEM DIE DIE oSo mUst gEt A or B...TO SAVE MY BIO BIO!!!
hiya hiya hiya

F&N....prActIcaL thIs THURSDAY!! OH MINE....
COOK COOK COOK...

MATHS TEST on MONDAY...
CHPT 1 - 9!!!

BIO TEST on WEDNESDAY...
DIE LAH.... CHPT 2 - 11!!!
I HAVEN EVEN LEARN CHPT 8 - 11...
NOE NOTHING ABT 2- 7... BOO!

I GIVE UP FOR BIO!!

bEiNg laMe aNd tYpInG LiKe tHat...ITS TIRING ACTUALLY...

2005-09-09T12:30:00.000-07:00

back to blog..
hmm.. wad to say..
exams are coming..
i m studying..
running out of time..

17 days left to the first paper..

17 so short time..
my eng paper 1...
wad m i going to do..

STUDY!

2005-09-06T04:02:00.000-07:00

YOH!
asakura!
lol..
hmm.. i gotta start studying!!
shut maple!!
lol haha no wonder i keep dying..
its to make me get xian of maple..
ahha..i NID TO STUDY!!
HAHA..
MAPLE U GO AWAY!
HAHA..
hmm.. had choir today..
i was thinking am i at the correct place..
hiy...life life life..
its getting xian again
but at least its more carefree..
no stoopid probs hanging around me..
besides THIS PROB WHICH IS RATHER HUGE..
HOW ON EARTH M I GOING TO PASS MY SEC 3 EH?
hiy..i miss some ppl.. how i wish they were here..
or know wad i m thinking..

2005-09-04T12:45:00.000-07:00

back to blog..
arr..!
been playing maple..
n i m going to stop alr..
my fellow keep dying..
stoopid leh..
i m lvl 19 now..
n i died four times within three days!!
i lvl 17 die 2 times lvl 18 1 time..
within less than a week can die 7 times..
woohoo! i break record ah..
haha lousy player is like tat one..
haha..holidays are here..
they are suppose to be fun!!
but i will have to study..
n i dunno where to start...
hmm..stop maple!! haha!!

2005-08-31T13:30:00.000-07:00

cyber was ok..
yah.. got alot of crap to rite..
but i lazy to..
haha..
study time..
maple died..
soo horrible..
i really nid to study..
f&n here i come!
LOL!

2005-08-29T19:45:00.000-07:00

helo..went to sch at 12 todae..
hmm.. saw the ppt..
discuss the changes..
n guess wad..
i ended up bringing it home to do the changes..
yah did it within 2 hrs..
than my email had prob..
i use noelle's email..
n i had to sent twice...
before sham got it...
i was getting uptight man..
like yah tml the presentation..
n cannot sent..
haha.. hmm.. watch tv..
play maple for 1/2 AN HOUR ONLI...
hahah..ate dinner..
did my f&n work..print..
blah blah blah..
n here i m to blog..
been listening to the same old songs again n again..
but i still love it...
QING TIAN!!

2005-08-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i m bored..
so i m here..
hmm..tml sch is only
frm 12 to 2..
cause of cyberweek =]
yay!
ahah ok..i watch homerun just now
soo sad..
soo poor thing..
funny thing is the show is..
just abt a pair of shoes..
but its soooooo nice...
haha..actually there's smth
i feel like writing...
i totally think ah bengs/lians
are actually ok..
not saying those really bad boys..
or the really act cute gals..
those are reallly really irritatng..
to me there is nice bengs/lians..
they may act cool..
just to get attention..
but maybe they dun get attention at home??
ya maybe mix wif them..
if u sense they are really bad..
than stay away..but..
if u dun bother to..n just stay away..
its kinda bad to them..
oook for myself i m like tat sumtimes..
yah.. but thats cause i cant stand the way
thoes ah lians flirt eeek!
soo i dun mix wif them..neither do i talk...
not all are like tat..
surely there are nice ones..
like yah i noe nice ones..
i tink if quite fun to mix wif them..
haha.. maybe cuz i come frm pc..
i tend to accept ah bengs/lians..
yah.. this is my opinion..
dun like dun read...
soo yah... keep your mouth..
ignore me oso...
for i dun care.. not soo immature like u!

2005-08-28T16:50:00.000-07:00

oook..
here to blog..
cause ppl ask why nv blog..
ahah.. ok ytd..
sat... had maths tuition..
yay! instead of bio -_-""
bio is boring..-_-"
than went to heartland to buy lunch..
wif jojo..
study n eat n play at jojo's house..
n jojo's bro is noisy man..hahaha
tok tok tok but yah hes like tat..
play maple there!!
BROWNMIX!!
HAHA!
ate dinner too..
thanks for the dinner jo!
haha hmm.. went home..
play more maple..wif jojo!
at kerning.. soo fun!
KILL THE MUSH MSUH!
ahha.. than erm...play until 12...
slept at 1 plus..
hmm..today. ahahh i skip church.. =[
hiy..too tired frm sat..
play maple...
got pissed off by fren.. and my KPO BRO!
TALK TALK TALK....XIAO ONE!
haha..than i did my hw =]
hmm.. eat lunch..did the last bit of my hw..
AND AND OFF TO MAPLE =]]
HAHA I M MAPLE ADDICT!
hmm..chat wif celest for awhile..
haha tis post is for her...
cuase she was the one hu ask...
"why nv blog??"
haha...i m actually blogging wif my maple guy..
sitting there haha...
ok going to play maple again =]
sadly.. jo cannot play...
bye!

2005-08-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i keep thinking todaes sat..
u noe why..
cuz todae is the start of cyberweek..
so yah.. its a off day frm school..
ok.. suppose to dicuss on msn..
guess wad.. everyone is online..but hmm..
everyone seems to be at "away" status
sooo i spent my day playing maple..
ooo..i can bet others are work super hard now
for cyber...dotdotdot
hmm.. n er... i kinda feel irritated..
over smth..smth tats is not impt..
n i simply dun understand..
why i feel irritated..
hmm..why?!?!?
should i go play maple again..??
i m bored..
n hungry too.. =[
tuition tml..i wan to do maths heh..
but arrr.. i dun like maths too..heee..
wad else studying wif jo..
tml afternoon..
at heartland mall..
macs or bk not sure..
anyway..hmm..
tml i dun tink i will even blog..

2005-08-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

back to blog..
haven been blogging..
cause simply i m lazy..
ok.. ytd i was to shack frm napfa..
plus the aches n pains that come frm it..
so i nv go sch..ahah
come to tok abt napfa..
hai hao.. but its still a fail..
i fail standing board jump..
d0td0td0t..
yah.. still left 2.4 run..cuase it was raining
tat day.. they didnt wan as to run in the rain..
todae is okay lah..
so-so onli..
i dun wan to type alr..
bye!

2005-08-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

hey.. back to blog..
was lazy to blog the past few days..
yah busy week ahead..
todae had first choir practice..
n yah ppl as usual ask q..
leaders help me get the singing rite..
yah but yah.. one thing..
i cant stand is ppl touching me on my shoulder
while talking to me..
pls to me is talk dun nid to touch lah..
yah.. wadeva just got touch
by various ppl todae in choir..
ok..no big deal actually..
just feel uncomfortable..
yah..tml got napfa..[izzit spell like tat??]
hmm.. i hope i pass..
hiyy.. long day again..
tiring again..
wad else..
wed arrrrr..
busy again..
hiy... thur choir again..dotdotdot..
fri no sch..cuz of cyberweek..
but hiy.. muz to online research n discuss online..
yah.. but three days of rest eh..
long weekend..
hmm.. i dun wan to feel lonely..
but i dun wan to be crowd by ppl..
i miss someone..
n i dun understand why i do..

bye!

2005-08-19T00:54:00.000-07:00

how was sch?

sch was okay only..

why okay only..?

cuz morning was bad..

why wad happen?

nah dun feel like saying..

ok its alright..

ok conversation between my n my twin..
oso known as me n myself...

being lame but hus cares..

woohoo gd news now..!
got my new hp..
new number..
finally a proper phone..
no need top-up stuff like tat..
ahha want to know my no..
msg me...thru hp or msn..
i lazy to sent..n tell =p

wad else...sad news now =[[

JUNYANG WENT OUT...
WHY?!?WHY!?!

SIN HUEY OSO..
WHY?!?WHY!?!

NOOOOOO!
I WAN HIS AUTOGRAPH
HIS ALBUM..
BLAH BLAH BLAH
I WAN HIM IN...

HIY..

2005-08-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

i looked around and heard a cry.
i saw the face and heard the words.
it was him,trapped in the blazing fire,
calling to me, " i love you! i love you! "
he was there that day and i didnt know..

so sweet..
he saved her..
but lost his life..

lol haha..
yet again another sad story..
hiy.. my favourite part..
oso the most sad part..

nth to post already..
bye!

2005-08-17T17:05:00.000-07:00

today..
is shitty
worst than ytd..
hiy...
why ah??
i dunno
i think i in wrong class
hiy..
how..??
study lor..
bo bian
must get out of this class
not say everyone bad
some are nice
like cassandra..
nicer one to me..
i feel unwanted
i dun give a damn..
i will just work hard..
get what i wan..
i miss 3f's fun..
hiy..
if only pc was as gd as pl..
pc is a bad place
but wif friendly ppl [my ex-classmates]
pl is gd place..
but with unfriendly ppl..
full of gossips n blah blah blah
keep toking abt love..
everyone got bf or crush
except me..-_-"" but i enjoy being single!
single RAWKS!
soo irritating
my bf this ..
my crush this..
tat boy this..
hiya.. rubbish ah!!!
mix sch oso less than this..
everytime free time is boy boy boy
kao bei ah..!
ahha i mad alr..-_-""
i should play maple again..
i m bored..!
i wan to play GUNZ!
but cannot..
lol..ok
yay! SUPERSTAR TONITE!!
CAN SEE JUNYANG!
HE WILL WIN!
WOOHOO!
LOL! lame lah..
hiy... i hope tml will be better...

lalalala...lalalala..
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

haha! daniel powter!
had a bad day...
sing the song
to turn it around!!

WOOHOO!
you had a good day!!

can i have you?
as long as u ain't a doll...

bye!

2005-08-16T16:45:00.000-07:00

hmm.. actually today
dun wan to blog
but than just felt like lah
ytd i told shaun being single is great
cause free from the " torture " of relationships.
the funny thing is that pratically
everyone i know..has a stead or crush on someone..
n like their crush oso like them stuff like tat..
than i was like thinking..
single is nice... i still feel so..
but having to know someone actually likes you..
or cares for you is nice too..
not saying i dun have..
anyone to care for me lah..
juz tat.. dun u wish to have..
someone to be there for u all the time...
its sweet..
but haha.. but its impossible for me...
haha cuz i m too quiet...n dao -_-""
erm.. i m getting crappy..
my blog is becoming soo love love kind..
d0td0td0t..
but i really wish for someone..
guy or girl oso can..
just someone to be there for me all the time..
its nice...dun u think so?

2005-08-15T15:05:00.000-07:00

its still monday.
3pm thats the time.
my 2nd post..
depressed in the morning.
ain't gd at all..
being depressed is never good.
well,i tried doing bio..
bio notes..cells
with music on..
i completed it after along time
i m bad at doing my own notes..
thats why i dun do notes..
well..i got tired..
i took my bible..flips thru..
reache the last bk..
i m curious.. should i read it..??
i read it..
its quite scary..but i carry on..
jesus's 2nd coming..
war between saturn n God
saturn's doom..
its scary but good..
God won..i noe he would..
but its still scary..the fight is scary..
esp chpt 18..i dun get it but its frightening.
its hard to understand the bk..
i tried though..
i read finish not long ago..
i wan to noe it more..
its a interesting bk to learn.
but i wonder..
why would i be when it happens..?
when will it come?
will i still be alive on earth..?
or would i be in heaven..?
will i witness the everything..?
its scary..
but the ending is nice..new heaven..
with all the chirstians =]
wonderful place =]
of cos i finally get too see God =]

end time --> 3.05 pm

2005-08-15T10:40:00.000-07:00

not in sch again..
i m depressed..
why?
i hate this life...
i juz wan to scream
how could this happen to me...!

i m going to retain
n i m not going to do anything
why should i?
life is crap!

i hate her..
she fails to be someone impt in my life..
she dun understand me..
she does not even noe i m depressed..
i m tired n sick of my life..
i m problematic..
no one can help...
even God cant
cause i dun wan help from him..
hes juz wasting his time on me!!

my dear is not around
shes busy
" sry i m currently busy.. dun distrub.. "
i cant distrub you..
i dun wan to be the cause of any failing..
i will juz fail myself..
leave ppl out of my stoopid life...
i dun wan to affect them..
but thanks dear..for everything..

i lost my dreams
it has become nitemares..
i m sad..

i m listening to untitled by simple plan now..
i m crying...
i mean it i m crying..

no one understands...

down, down, down, down, down
I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy...!!!!

its a song...happy by matt west..
its just one part..
just to remind me...!

its a weird post.. i m just giving bit n pieces of my life..

i hate dolls..
they are gay..
inside joke..between me n my fren..

really weird post -_-""

2005-08-14T15:45:00.000-07:00

hmm.. sunday..
ym was boring...-_-""
after ym went for flower hunting
hunt hunt hunt
cannot find flower shop..
than in the end went to heartland mall
on the way the bus ride was shit..
i kept going to fall..
jo n yt kept laughing..
in the end bought a candle for my mom... =]
ahhaha!
hiy... but sad sad sad..
i saw a cat at gardens...
it was not alive..
thanks to some inconsiderate freak...!
the cat got hit...
by some dumb driver..!
arrrrrrrr...!
n i saw that idiot today!!
freaky...soo act cool..-_-""
d0td0td0t..

hiy...happy things happen
sad things too..

2005-08-13T18:15:00.000-07:00

i had bio tuition...hiya
hard hard hard
soo blur...abt tis n tat...
i hate life..
life is arrrrrrrr...

my dreams became nitemares..
i hate you...u "destoryed" me...
shit you... i will dao u foreva...

2005-08-12T22:30:00.000-07:00

what is this year..
i have no idea
i am not myself..
never been like tat
i used to go school
everyday..
what am i doing??
its a good place
but why am i not happy??
what is wrong with me..?!?!
i have a feeling
i will flunk my year away
n retain like i am born to do so..

ok back to blog..
tat was morning blog
n its night blog..
lame lah i noe..-_-"
hiy... i m soo digusted right now..
i cant believe it happen..
its soo sick...
my gosh... acbc man...
diao... i m really sick by it...
i wonder if it is really true..
as in oh mine.. wad a behaviour...
-_-""so gay...!

2005-08-11T16:15:00.000-07:00

nth much happen todae
i m juz tired
yet i cant slp..
test for the next whole week..
-_-"
when can life be better?

should i tell?
i wonder what the reaction will be?

2005-08-10T14:20:00.000-07:00

hmm..
10 august..
smash by my f&n hw..
-_-"
i m tired!
i hate f&n!

2005-08-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

national day..
great day..
hmm.. holi tml =]
but it would be
do-your-hw mode..
or u will get killed..
lol ok tats all..=]

2005-08-07T21:20:00.000-07:00

hmm.. church was fine..=]
but i m was in pain the whole day..
i wan to pon sch tml..
but i have drumming
hiy..
but if really bad i tink i will not go for sch..
hope my tch WILL understand!
i read the whole of tuedays with morrie..
super duper gd bk..
read it k!
hmm.. bye!
hmm.. my posts are gettin
shorter n shorter
day by day

2005-08-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

sch was fine =]
fop was gd
but very very very crowded
squeezed my way thru the whole time..
took tim's car home
more squeezing
n hes a bad driver
but than agian crowded place are like tat.
hmm..its late
got tuition tml
so ya gd nite!

2005-08-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

hmm.. todae was fine..
tml will be long
i hope things turn out rite tml.
going festival of praise tml
hope i will be able to..
hehe hope sch will be gd =]
haha hmm.. tats all bye!
i go slp alr..

2005-08-03T17:40:00.000-07:00

hmm. today..
its not as gd as monday..
can say it was so-so
but its over
so not point typing it here..
so yah tats all bah..
bye!

i have decided i will tell..

2005-08-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

today ah...quite xian lah..
had stomach pains the whole morning..
n rather clusmy whole morning too..
intro tis bk..private peaceful..
very gd bk..its sad lah..
hmm.. abt war again..
it great tat i m starting to enjoy reading..
but onli war stories..
any war stories..
muz lend me or tell me hor..
ahah!
chi test tml!!
haven even studied yet..
hus care...juz studied some tonite..
xian...

2005-08-01T16:00:00.000-07:00

monday..
gd monday at sch..
just tat..
i tink someone has BO
i nearly died today..
i tink its the person next to me..
er... i wonder how to tell her..
cant say straight in her face rite...
hiy..but i will died soon if i dun..
other than tat
sch was fine..
hmm.. after sch went church
to make a phone call..
hehe.. my phone died..
ok.. wad else.. i juz walk around church office
while waiting for my dad..
hmm.. talk to some ppl..
wad else..i bought food..frm market..
hmm.. n i ask my dad to buy sugar cane..
n i regret..
cause he bought the wrong kind..
he bought packet..!!! how m i going to carry huh...
in the car somemore..
soo yah i spill some..
n i dun understand why my hands were sticky
it was fill wif sugar cane before i even spill -_-"
anyway finally i reach home =]
bath bath bath
eat eat eat..
n i m here blogging now..
heheh.. so u see sch was fine..
after sch was kinda sway...
back to sch tml..
u noe wad i kinda like sch again..
i hope tml wont make me hate it again..
ehhe ok tats all.. bye!

2005-07-31T14:00:00.000-07:00

no ym todae..
soo i slp in todae..
i can slp like super long..
i woke up at 11.40am -_-"
i haven eaten my lunch yet..
waiting for my parents to come back..
hmm.. i did my hw..
some of my maths questions..
left 9 questions.. i not sure how to do..
hmm.. i did my ss mindmap =]
its full of stuff cuz theres sooo much to rite..
n its really really messy.. =[
hahah.. hmm... resting now =]
heheh.. i m tired leh..
tml sch again..
hope i dun get monday blues
hmm.. hope it would be a fine day..
ok tats all!
bye for now!

2005-07-30T14:10:00.000-07:00

I JUST WANT TO BE CARE!
IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?
I KNOW YOU CARE
SHOW IT PLEASE
TALK TO ME
I M ALONE
I DUNWAN TO BE!
AHHH!!!ARRRR!
WHY IS LIFE LIKE TAT FOR ME!
WHY AM I ALWAYS ALONE?
GOD I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME
BUT PLS SENT SOMEONE
TO JUST TALK TO ME
I DUNWAN TO CALL
I DUNWAN TO SMS
I DUNWAN TO CHAT
CAUSE I DUNWAN TO..
TROUBLE THEM
CAUSE IT MAKES ME HATE MYSELF
I FEEL I AM IRRITATING
BUT I REALLY FEEL LONELY
I FEEL LIKE CRYING
I SEEM OK
BUT I M NOT
I JUST WANT ATTENTION
I DUN WAN TO BE ALONE..

BUT I WILL NEVER HARM MYSELF..

2005-07-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

ook..i tink i will skip todaes happening
i feel lonely again..
yes i am really..
new classmates..means nth much to tok..
my bro does tok to me at all..
besides some questions..
my church frens are all so busy..
i cant disturb them..
i would make me more irritating
theres no sg..i tink it will get lesser
cuz terri's starting sch..
wad else i still dun like to go sch..
but i will go...no matter wad..
thanks cheryl for talking to me...
hmm.. my parents yah..
i onli tok to my dad..
church is i dun feel like going...
even though i noe its wrong..
i tink i will juz..
draw myself away frm the world..
no msn
no phone talking
no smsing
no hp..
no computers
onli music n my bks..
i will juz do tat..
i will juz be a lonely person
for the next few months
till exams are over..
i feel lonely all ALONE!
juz like my blogskin...
alone.. all by myself..

2005-07-28T17:30:00.000-07:00

i finally went to get my IC done..
haha ok... its was crap..
i keep having to press my fingerprints
n the lady was pulling my thumb!!
ok haha i juz ate my dinner...
n its 5.30!!
haha soo early but hungry lah..
wad else i m alnost done wif kiss the dust..
ok..the story ish real nice..
well but rite now where i m reading
ish kinda boring..
the story ish sad..
it is a war between iran n iraq
families have to run for their lifes..
so tis gal called tara n her family..
run frm iraq to iran n
now trying to get to london safely
yah along the way has lotsa hardship n
bombing n killing..ppl dying in the war..
risk of dying or torture to death..
its really sad... but i m emotionless.
soo i dun cry... -_-"

2005-07-27T16:25:00.000-07:00

spent my day..
reading kiss the dust..
my lit book..
hiya got the assignment to do..
dumb waste time..
but the bk ish quite nice..
ok wad else.. i dunno..
tis yr has been bad...
i pon too much.. even when i m in pl
but pl ish better.. but sch is boring..
its repeated chpts..yah..
lit n bio are like new..so
i juz slack in class..
f&n ish coursework..xian..
maths chi eng chem are like ook...
i noe tis n tat..
ss geog i dun give it a damn..
anyway...superstar tonite..
go junyang..!
i dun tink anyone noes hu tat..
hes one of the fanalist..
one of the first few to get in..
haha ok.. hes singing rawks lah..
ok i hope he wins..
but yah..i m not a fan or crazy over him.
juz tink hes singing ish real nice.
hmm.. type type type..
oh yah yulin's birthday today..
Happy Birthday Yu Lin!
even though u wont read my blog..
cuz u dunno the add...haha..
ok i tink tats all.. bye!

2005-07-26T15:40:00.000-07:00

this morning was soo cold
it was raining..
i hate rainy days
cause theres traffic jam
i have to walk in the rain
the risk of being late for sch..
n wad else its superrr cold.
before sch start it was like..
i was told it was a must for me
to go for the drumming..
its soo bad..juz cause i didnt do CIP yet
arr... its 8 hrs on 8 n 9 aug..pls waste time
its a holiday!! ppl will be watching the parade
while i play drums for dunno hu..
not just tat..i request change of seat
n i got the class to ' trouble '..
she change like soo many ppls seat
n worst still.. i hate my new seat..!
the person next to me is so dao.. -__-"
first lesson - geog...dead boring!!
music was xian..i didnt wan to play the guitar..
but bo pian lor tch ask me too..
n i sux at it!
ok wad else..eng lesson was uh huh..
she dao me she didnt dare to tok to me..
pls.. n how are we suppose to do pairwork..?!?!
ok.. recess was okay lah
juz eat lor.. borrow money..
cuz i forgot my wallet!
than was lit.. super slack..some essay question..
i haven read the whole bk yet..
so i dun nid to hand up yet..
next week than hand up..
chem n maths.. juz test lor..
ok lah the test.. can pass bah..
gd thing ish no one bang into me today..
bad thing i kept feeling the floor virbrate..
like yah..ok my blood flow ish shivering... -_-"
wad kind of day ish todae..kinda sway..
i tired to tok more todae..but no click at all..
hiya..wad a life..
btw may i know..do anyone read my blog..
i dun tink so lah..
tag the board pls..if u read..
yah..surely u hav something to say rite...
ok bye!

2005-07-25T15:30:00.000-07:00

monday blues todae..
bad headache again..
tml chemistry test..
maths too..
i hope i do well.
i m bored now.
like normal..xian ah..
no one seems to be online
since i like only tok to two ppl
woah 122 contacts..
tok to onli two ppl
woah it means i have..
120 contacts there..
for show onli.. lol lame...
ok wadeva..
i m very sleepy..
i wan to slp
i m hungry too..
i wan to eat..
but i dun wan to study..
i m tired..! borred!!borred!
come someone.. come online!!!!

2005-07-24T15:00:00.000-07:00

ok todae was fine..
juz kena scared by some old man.
hmm...ym was good..great..
hehe..quite lame.. i abit mad..
i got presents again..belated one
frm celest ehhe everything pink xia..
hmm.. got hw i dun wan to do
hehe.. but got to so bye for now..
off to hw..

2005-07-23T18:10:00.000-07:00

hmm.. had devotion todae..
i hav hw..
f&n coursework
but its xian..calcium..
oook..will do tml..
n i hav maths..
at least its simple ones
not head-cracking kind..
n i m flooded wif test next week..
n its like all on the same day..
chem n maths on tue..
chi on wed i tink xian..
xian xian xiani...
i was tired during sg..
but now i m still..
but i CANT SLP..
tis is boring..
life wif out my frens
to tok wif ish boring..=[

2005-07-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

ook.. todae was erm...
ok yah quite bad actually
i practically bang to anything
frm photo taking onwards
was bad..
hiya i bang like anywhere
into anyone..
ok tats bad news
i seriously nid to be more careful in sch..
but its crowded.. hiya hiya
hmm.. gd news ish i tok alot todae
i seem to be closer to my new classmates
which is gd..
n yes todae was..
my first day at interact club..
=] installation day..d0t i had to do stuff..
lijun came.. =] tok tok tok
i m really suprise 3f actually miss me..
ok.. yah i muz drop by someday..
hmm.. wad else yes i tok too much todae...
hah but its was fun...=]
actually day ish fine
except for the bloodly banging!

2005-07-21T16:40:00.000-07:00

hmm..back to sch..
sch was okay lah..
i tink i should change place
i m in the middle of the class
far at the back though
ok i like the back..
but erm not in the middle
ish not really nice to sit..
cuz everyone walks there..
hmm..had my first f&n lesson todae..
its was kinda xian..
meat & methods of cooking..
boring theroy ish xian!!
heh..practical ish more fun..
but heh got alot of washing to do
but can play wif water
but sadly no practical todae
hmm..i have lotsa test again
f&n test n bio retest tml..=[
f&n course work oso!!
jian bao..!!! hiya 10 articles..
n gan xiang oso..simple but tiring..
tats for not attendin school regularly
hehe..hmm..i talk to VP todae
tats cuz she wanted to tok to me..
wad else the Pricinpal finally met me..
finally noe hus jeanne ong...lol
the famous jeanne ong.. lol juz jking!
hm.tok to me quite a while..hehe..
wont say wad she told me here...

i nid to change a few points of me..
1] stop pon-taning sch soo often
2] be less irritated by ppl
3] mix more n talk more
4] be happy
5] dun be soo xian
6] study real hard the next 3 months
7] do really well for final yr
8] lesser time spent on the computer
9] learn the basics of the guitar
10] be less angry wif myself..n others
11] love myself more n stop hating myself..

got somemore i tink
hmm.. got alot of bad points =[

2005-07-20T02:07:00.000-07:00

i noe its awful
cuz its done by me
not totally by me
i juz added the words
n destory the whole picture
sry to the person hu made it
i m juz piss of wif life
i like your picture tats all..

2005-07-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

wad am i?
i m juz trouble
to my family
to the sch
i m a problem not a human
problem in a human form
many love me yet hate me too
cuz i dun listen
i noe my weak points
but i nv work at it
i nv wan to try to work at it
i hate myself
i hate wad i m doing
but things nv go my way
i dun wan to be like tat..
i m better off dead
but i dare not..

2005-07-18T15:25:00.000-07:00

Angry wif myself.
in peicai i feel unhappy
cuz it SUXS so much
in PL i feel okay
but its boring
i totally tink the prob lies wif me
simply i dun enjoy studying
maybe i shall juz get tuition
i cant self-study
i drift off most of the time
back to sch tml
bored..i tink my classmates
find me weird or lazy
or wadeva..not gd impression alr..

I STILL HATE SCHOOL.

2005-07-17T16:10:00.000-07:00

church was fine =]
RHD tml
i m going to wear like yt..
lol ok tats if jan jan got my msg
ok i still hate school
i hate myself
if only i was as smart as my bro
i wont have to be in tis mess
and i get bad news every other day
why is my life like tat??
i may be always smiling or juz plain xian..
i m actually crying a river inside..
happy things now
well i got presents again
thanks xinnie n terri =]]
nice wallet n book!
i will use it n read it!

I HATE SCHOOL!
I SHALL JUZ GIVE UP SINCE
EVERYTHING DOESN'T GO MY WAY!

2005-07-15T16:00:00.000-07:00

check tis out
its lame..but cute..
STICKMAN ISH NICE =]

http://stephen.napurano.com/The_Stickman_Chase.htm

I HATE SCHOOL!

2005-07-14T15:05:00.000-07:00

hmm.. todae
back to sch..
sch was okay lah
better than tues
n erm..i m bored in sch
n yah irritated
i keep gettin hit by ppl
too often
wadeva lah..a prob onli
God can solve for me
hmm..its really boring
no fun..xian
my classmates
nth much to tok abt..
even more bored.

2005-07-13T17:10:00.000-07:00

todae is juz a boring day..
hmm..i was sick
soo no school
soo fast hor nv attend sch alr
but really sick..
hmm.. wad else
i juz spent my day telling
them my ' probs '
as usual she dun understand
n say wrong things
at least he understands n
say the kinda right things..
i hate toking abt my ' probs '
cuz i always start crying
while toking..
cry too much alr..
but i hav alot alot of tears hehe!

2005-07-12T15:30:00.000-07:00

so today's my birthday..
but it was a bullshit day
shit shit shit day
its the first day being a 15 yrs old
n its tis shit as day
when will the banging prob end?
tell me!
tats all i have to say
i hate everything
i hate myself
i have nth to say
anyway frens thanks for the presents!

2005-07-11T16:00:00.000-07:00

today was fine =]
but had lotsa questions..
but overall it was okay..
juz tok a lot..hehe
hmm..tml my birthday =]
15 tml
nice year will be ahead..
hmm.. but muz get IC done..
lazy to go take photo

2005-07-10T17:00:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i skip church todae..
tired as usual
i muz change lah..
hmm..wad else thanks my dear frens
for the presents..
i really appericated it..=]

2005-07-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

did lotsa stuff todae..
i went terri's house today
for devotion
i was the onli one
celest couldnt make it
i went for prayer wif anutie annie..
hmm..went bibi baba to buy uniform
got my size for pinofore
not for the blouse one..
wah i cant stand it lah..
the belt ish soo high
n the bottom ish soo long..
it is high belt skirt lenght to my knee
wah kao nerd of the class man..
anyway.. tahan for a while lah..
wad else i had my hair cut today
nice as usual
hmm..cheaper today..$25 plus
i had sakae sushi for my birthday dinner..
yum! yum!
wad else i bought two collar tees
one white one pink
actually wan black lor
than my mom say not nice
ask me choose diff one..
soo i be guai gal lor..
change to pink..nice's colour there
wad else..i bought new school shoes
canverse northern smth..
quite nice lah..
buy big big one..look nice
i bought agar agar oso
nice nice i like agar agar
lol haha.. i tink tats all bah..
lotsa things bought n done todae..

and and and

I M FINALLY A PL LITE !!!
=] =] =]

2005-07-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

mine mine
i feel soooooo much better
i tink its a better choice
doesnt affect my future anyway
in affect i tink it helps
juz hope i wont be unwanted
hope life will be fun there.

2005-07-07T14:35:00.000-07:00

i feel like crying..cry wif me can?
i m really tat lousy
tat i muz go there
i really dun wan to
but i think its the only way to catch up

my frens u wont look down at me rite?
i feel dumb..
no one in my family is like me
i m the only one
everyone ish smart
except me

wad m i good at?

2005-07-06T17:45:00.000-07:00

totally HATE todae..
why muz tis happen..
u tink go there really helps..
NO!
nvm dun feel like writing..

n strangers dun tag my tagboard..
its not meant for you..
tag onli if u are my fren..

2005-07-05T16:00:00.000-07:00

back to blog..
yes still as boring
ppl ask me to do hw for them ah
sry ans ish no..hahah
anyway, todae..
anime again...
seriously i dun have any
NICE one...
samurai champloo ish d0td0td0t
so-so lah...
fantastic children ish not fantastic at all..
it is dead boring..
n slow dun even noe wad its toking abt..
three children running on a island..
n befort children hu are they...
white hair kids with weird secrets
running around too..looking for some gal
its moves even slower than a snail lah...
dead boring leh..
n my bro say very nice...
lol...!

[run out of nice animes]

2005-07-04T13:50:00.000-07:00

bored!!
boooored!!
m super borredd!
nth to do!!!!

2005-07-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

church church
ym was fun fun!
went to heartland mall again
wif joanna again
but it was fun fun
i had to buy food back
for my whole family
hiya hiya hiya
anyway yah..
tml ish holiday..
hehehe..i nid a watch
well my mom ish
chasing me to buy one..
there clocks in sch
why muz buy watch...
anyway i want a..
nice n cool black watch..
hah but i m lazy to go n buy..
=] =] =]
[ anyone wan to buy for me??]
heheh!

jean the lazy gal =]

i hav totally nth to do..
i watch finish shaman king...
bleach new shows haven com out
i watch samurai champloo
quite nice lah but super sadistic
the samurai juz slashes anyone
to opposed them or attack them
without caring
-slash slash slash-
now i noe why ppl ask me
to watch samurai
since i enjoy sword fighting
but tis ish nooooo style
ish juz killing for no reason..
i enjoy swordplay when killing bad ppl..
hiya hiya..
but i will juz watch finish the show..
its quite nice juz too much killing...
lol ! yah tats all! bye!

2005-07-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i m crazy alr..
watching 25 shows in a day
but hahha once in a while
its okay to me..
i dun lyk hao..
but i tink hes cool
but wad evil eyes he hav..
n laughter..scary!
lol but cuz he looks like yoh..
tats why hes cool..
than again the evil n good twin
lol soo many shows like tat
okok i m bored
i really dunno wad to rite..
hahahha bb!
[off to the next show]

2005-06-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

heyo!
yay!
freedom at last
can play at ease
hmm..not really
i hav to wait for results
hope i get wad i wan =]
ook.. shaman king rawks!
heh heh i love the show..
haha i watch espisode
umm..25 to 38
woot..sit until butt pain ah!
4 hours in front of the monitor..
cannot alr..
i watch like14 espisode can die alr..
wah i cant believe ppl actually can watch
100 over in two days..
oh mine.. i cant man!
will get super tired...
anyway, back to the show tml..
=] =] =]
( my latest smile)

2005-06-29T14:25:00.000-07:00

heyo!
da da da
erm..todae huh
hiya hiya hiya
i study wrong one
got map-reading
my nitemare
but it was ok
hahah cultivation
ahhh.. i hardly learn it..
tourism!!!!
why malaysia one..!
i want sg one!
lol.. see nearly study
all the wrong one!
BUT BUT BUT
it was OKAY!
i manage to answer
hope can pass =)

[ i nid food..hungry lah! ]

buy for me??
=] =] =]

2005-06-28T18:10:00.000-07:00

i m back!
hehe! todae wasnt tat bad afterall.
its was fine
i can do it
will be mugin more tonite
last chance
pray for me =]
pray tat i will do well
n those i have done.
i see hope! alot of hope!
two more days..
it would be over
not tat stress afterall
=] =] =]
n i saw many church ppl todae!
- wave wave -
and
happy birthday cheryl!
(dunno if u will read tis)

2005-06-27T15:30:00.000-07:00

doda doda doda
i have nth to say
tml ish start of it
my future depends on tis
wish me all the best
pray for me too
mug mug mug
hope i dun forget
my future really depends
on the next few days

2005-06-26T15:40:00.000-07:00

back to church!
play games yah fun bah..
cao service ._."
went mac wif joanna -_-"
i find macs food are boring..
nth new..
but nth else to eat..
last day of holi..
d0td0td0t..
alex lend me some show..
its in chinese..
since i watch chi shows..
n listen chi songs..
but i HATE chi hw..
my tch gave me too much hw..
n i m soo tired todae..
i woke up at 7 plus
juz to go church
cos of parents again lah...
i dun tink i wan to do e hw alr..
ar... i juz wan to play n watch anime
should i slp..?
but later no time to do hw
she may scold me..
i tink i will juz be soo stress on tue..
n maybe tml too..
i tink whole week stress..
i cant wait for fri.. its youth day..
woohoo! holiday!
maybe i will go shopping..
got alot of things to buy leh
tats all bye!

2005-06-25T18:15:00.000-07:00

had small grp todae
countdown two days
how how i not really ready
help me!
N
i want to eat sushi!

2005-06-24T15:30:00.000-07:00

todae.. i had tuitions..
in the morning n afternoon
maths in e morning
chinese in e afternoon
ok.. both was horrible..
maths i forgot how to do
indices..chpt one..
mine i got nearly all wrong.
i learn the later chpts..noe it well..
i forget the first few chpts..
vice versa.. goes on like tat..
wonder wad shit brain i have...
cant even remember all the chpts
formula by heart...
chi even worst.. i see no hope of passing
my compo ish juz eugh!
shit story i write..
i mean not even a story..
lol its juz riting crap
i tink i will juz failed my compo...
maybe shi han or gong han
maybe can pass..
like 10 upon 20!
compo eugh cant even imagined passing..
countdown..
3 days left

2005-06-23T16:00:00.000-07:00

i m a sad gal rite now
but i will try my best to be happy..
soon everything will come to an end..
n it will be the starting of my happy life..
thanks for being such great frens..
thanks for be there for me..
i appreciate it alot!
ok.. i went sakae ytd..
ok.. isaac's idea always eating at there..
sakae fellow..ok..i was the onli gal..
there the others gals last min nv come..
ok soo me n three guys..lol
one of them my bro lah..
but i didnt even tok to him..
seriously we dun tok
even though we are siblings..
i tink my frens tok more to him...
well they are our frens lah..
but i realli dun care if we tok a not..
bcos we are juz too busy
wif our own probs
no time to bother each other..
dunno abt him
well i m feelin like tat now..
ok..we waited at the entrance together..
n we stood there for 15 mins..
nv even say hi to each other..
ok.. total strangers eh...
but hiya onli tis yr like tat..
so not soo bad to me...
wadeva probs i go to my frens
instead of family..
ok.. sumtimes cuz
the probs ish wif them..
actually i dunno why..
i tend to become real rude
durning fights..angry eh? i guess so..
ok.. everyday passes by wif my probs...
tis blog ish real sad now..
the skin somemore soo sadistic...
lol.. explain how i feel now..
but i noe God is there..
things will change soon..
real soon..!

2005-06-22T13:00:00.000-07:00

blog blog blog
well i feel super sad lah..
but my parents dun understand..
they tink i m blaming them..
they think they are not giving me stress
well i guess i will juz keep quiet n they too
to avoid fights..i hate fights
cuz its abt the same thing
n at the end of it.. they still dun understand why i feel
soo horrible n uptight n stress..
i go to my frens instead..
some help me but encouraging..
some tell me i m partly at fault lah..

2005-06-21T14:00:00.000-07:00

Youth Retreat Theme Song!

juz bored shall put lyrics here..
if only can play the song here too..

Here I stand
Forever in Your mighty hand
Living with Your promise
Written on my heart
I am Yours
Surrendered wholly to You
You set in Your family
Calling me Your own

Now I,
I belong to You
Lord I need
Your Spirit, Your word, Your truth
Hear my cry
My deep desire
To know You more

In Your name
I will lift my hands
To the King
This anthem of praise I bring
Heaven knows
I long to love You
With all I am
I belong to You

2005-06-20T16:00:00.000-07:00

ook.. i m dead lah..
i wan to play yet cant play in peace..
thoughts of the first week ish coming
i dunno wad to do lah...
i tink i will juz like fail at tis rate
i m not concertrating..
i m day dreaming of the impossible
okk.. wadeva u tink it ish...
i m juz dreaming more n more tis days
abt anything except studies..
n yesh.. stop stressing me ah...
i wan to juz get in n get it over n done wif...
tis is rubbish why cant they juz let me in..
spare me frm all tis studying..
i m soo not happy rite..
i miss camp days.. evne though got highly irritated there too
but freedom there dun hav to care abt books..soo carefree..
i miss my frens..even though i see them
every sunday i juz felt thru tat camp
we are closer... as in yah we understand each other better..
n God loves me n i love him too..
but i m tired lah .. i m not studying type..
i juz want to get in n hav fun n
enjoy my studying! do well pass olevel
get in a jc or poly..n do desinging!
tats all i ask for..why muz i go thru all tis..!
huh.. test my standard if i fail.. i dun get in
u will nv know wheather i actually can handle the so called " stress " level
wad u are giving now ish more stressful
than any other thing on tis earth..!
can i juz get thru tis n pass it..
i wan to get back to school..

2005-06-19T17:10:00.000-07:00

hel0!
sunday!
back to dun go church.. i m tired mood
oh mine i gotta change...
i m changing back to my old self before camp..
hiya hiya i cant.. ok i will attend church
every week without fail..
ok.. well my frens were like smsing me
why nv come..? todae again..? overslept huh?
well.. juz plain lazy..
hiya.. i m sry God forgive me..
i was really tired frm camp..
i noe camp close up on friday..but my energy level
does not seem to increase up..
i still cant slp like i m before n during camp
i m pressure.. n stress..
i tink i m going be dead soon..
doomsday coming liao..
i m worried.. i keep praying ppl keep praying for me..
but i juz dun wan to study..
but yet worried..tis is soo contradicting
ok.. i tink i will juz like slack more todae
n study like xiao for the next 8 days...
ok.. i seem like taking o level...
ok.. good news now..
i got my mp3 player... n its looks quite nice..
but not as cool as i thought it would be.
my dad got it for me lah...
ok.. i burn the christian songs disc
christian songs rawks..ok wad else
i dun tink any thing else..
but my ears hurt...
ow.. cuz of the ear piece of the mp3...
its making my ear red...pain pain!

2005-06-17T19:20:00.000-07:00

ok.. hahah yesh!
youth camp retreat 05'
all i can say is IT WAS GREAT!
ok.. actually to say it started of bad..
sleepy.. n yah new grp members..
strangers to me..
grp members were...
jas terri joshua marcus daniel hilary n xinne
and ME.. ok so four new ppl..
we took a SBS bus to campsite..
not many ppl so didnt bother to take a hired bus...
ok.. we had grp time.. n played games.. worship!
speaker session by Jacob.. i have s t m lah..
but i remember.. we muz be different frm others.. live like God..
and treated your bible as your treasure nv misplace it..
ok.. yup played games at nite!
FUN! simply FUN! hmm.. wad else.. wrote encouragment cards...
n had a bad slp.. i was shivering the whole nite..
cuz air con was blowing straight at me.. n fan rite above me...
lol.. like in north pole leh...
ok.. 2nd day was fine.. we had to speakers sessions
by auntie seok eng n some pastor...ok
as usual auntie seok eng toks soo cute like a little gal..
shes has lotsa stories abt her life..really interesting..
but hmm.. she taught us abt prayer..
n yah had new grp member lah super late hor..
2nd day than come...
ok.. the pastor one was teaching us how to listen to God..
i was kinda tired i was not listening much..
but yah.. i kinda came back feeling blur abt tat talk..
oh mine tis ish the best best part of camp..
the last nite.. we had acting lah.. of our grp name..
names of ppl in the bible.. act on their life with jesus..
n yesh i was soo paiseh.. i was acting as some hu was strong..
as in voice.. i was soo weak.. so paiseh..
cant be help i m soft during acting..
altar call was at nite.. it was simply Great i felt soo much happier
aftertat..i really dun regret coming for camp..
its juz soo nice the feeling.. but i cant really explain how it felt...
so yah will stop here... n sry for those hu didnt come...
n trying to make u feel sad for not coming..
i m juz writing down my feelings..
n yup the Camp song ish soo nice.. tune n lyrics...
I belong to you!

2005-06-14T16:00:00.000-07:00

todae.. doing nth
juz slacking in front of com
hmm.. wad else tmr is camp
pack alr.. nearly lah..
hmm.. short of a few stuff
eg. the slping bag..
ok.. wad else.. hmm..
i m looking for my anime songs titles
lol.. cant seem to find my fav one...
ook.. tats all bb!

2005-06-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

had tuition todae..
chinese bad bad bad my chinese is soo bad
TIS YEAR!
lol! anyway yah.. i play the rest of the day
i have no mood to study..
i m going camp tis wed to fri..
n clarice n YT going..
lol! hiya! but i tink i will bring chinese hw
to copy lor..
lotsa hw frm auntie lilian todae
the deadline is coming..
i m gettin worried..
well.. dun ask me wad deadline i toking abt..
i dun wan to say...
dun guess n let it not bother u..
thanks if u do tat..
the whole afternoon i was toking to bored clarice
n yt.. haahh we toked soooooo much crap..
it was fun though..polar bear n iron ladies...
lol! soo lame...hahha
bye! tats all for todae..!

2005-06-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

I FINALLY WENT CHURCH!
OOK! WILL TYPE TIS IN CAPS FOR FUN!
OOK..I WENT YM..IT WAS OOK..PLAY SOME GAMES..ITS WAS FINE..HERE THE CAPS COME IN USE! SERVICE BANG BANG BANG BY STRANGERS N FRENS..OOK..I HATE BEING TOUCHED..OR BANG INTO..BUT I JUZ HAVE TO.. BE WIF PPL HU ARE SOO CLUMSY..I M NEITHER THIN NOR FAT I M JUZ NICE SIZE..SO IT JUZ DOES NOT MAKE SENSE WHY I GET BANG MORE THAN FAT PPL..(NO OFFENCE)! OOK.. AS A CHRISTIAN I PRAY TO GOD TO HELP ME FORGIVE THEM.. I DID AND ENJOY THE REST OF THE DAY..N YAH NO ONE BANG INTO ME AFTER TAT BESIDES MY JIE WHOM KEPT POKING ME WIF THE PAPER..LOL! THANK GOD FOR ANWERSING MY PRAYERS!! =)) HAHAH! YAH WAD ELSE.. TERRI IS BACK (IN CAPS FOR FUN NOT TAT I M SOOO HAPPY SHES BACK) OK BUT SHE BOUGHT A LITTLE SMTH FRM HER CHINA TRIP..SO SWIT OF HER! HAHHA SOO CUTE " PINKY " MONKEY BRAND SWEET.. LOL ERM I M BEING LAME.. BUT ITS REALLY CUTE CUTE BOX..! HAHAH OK.. I WAS MEMORISING MY CHI DICTATION JUZ NOW.. LOL! CHI GOT DICTATION ONE..MY TUITION TCH MADE ME DO ONE..GOING TO TEST ME TMR..ITS OKAY LAH CAN REMEMBER MOST OF IT.. ! WILL PRATICE AGAIN LATER! HAHAH ! BYE! TATS ALL FOR TODAE!

2005-06-11T16:40:00.000-07:00

saturday!
hmm.. i did some handwriting analysis
its like a quiz..
looking at your handwriting..
tells your personality
ook.. i cant put it here its too long..
simply wad they say ish abit like me..
except some parts..
ook yah wad else
i bake cookies todae
wif my dad suprise eh
my dad.. lol he help me alot ok..
peanut butter cookies...
turn out looking weird haha..
but its nice.. taste nice..
hmm.. tats all lah..
bye!

2005-06-10T19:20:00.000-07:00

ook.. FRIDAY!
heheh my fav day when there ish sch..ok abt todae.. study as usual.. went cheryl's house..studied geog.. tok wif her alot!.. soo long nv see her alr..let alone tok.arrr..! everything seems to be shaking like the chair i m sitting on.. arrr.. ! is it me or wad.. m i not feeling well.. i dunno its coming back use to hav tis feeling..=( wad else i found out frm cheryl ONLI 18 PPL sign up for the youth retreat next week..=(! my gosh they made it toooo serious now no one wants to go.. even me dun wan to go actually after hearing soo little going.. arr..but have to lah.. i m part of the camp com. lol! hiya juz hope the ppl will be late comers n hand in the form tis sunday..! hahah! at least pls 30 ppl go.. now its 18 plus me n bro n yt.. soo its 21..God pls send 9 more ppl to come..help them to be free those days..! Amen! haha lol! but i really want more ppl to come.. hiya as part of the camp com of cos i want it to be a success lah.. but hiya its not too gd so far its like in four days time! n onli 21 one ppl! hiya..! i dun tink i will even stay on for the whole camp maybe leaving on thur nite.. not intending to sleepover on thur.. i maybe hav tuition on fri so better go home n slp.. yah.. my parents want me to stay home actually.. but i tink i m going juz to relax and stay away frm the books for two days.. yup i m a teenage i nid rest n fun! hmm.. ok shall end here! bye! tag k!

2005-06-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

thursday! lol 2nd wk of holis are ending..
closer to doomdays..
oook..had tuition finsh not long ago..
hmm..well okk i got something frm frenster
shall juz paste it here its lame lah
but its soo me...i m born in july btw..

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically andmentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp.Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

wad ish true abt me..
nearly everything except.. the reputation one i dun understand wad it means in tis sense...
not tat tactful...witty n sparkly no lah very blur one.. forms impression huh.. dunno dun care act like myself.. not harkworking onli sumtimes..exams time..n not really true nv looks for frens lah.. but always waitin for them..hiya hiya hiya..

totally agree the stomach problem one.. always lor.. i love to be loved...=) so love me k...! always brood abt past yah yah so tired of it.. onli makes me sad.. easily hurt lah..lotsa sad mermories...
=( not aggressive one but foreva get provoked by ppl...so yah true lah..

very funny leh first time soo zun...tis kinda stuff..=)

agree a not?? tag my board horr...muz hor wan to read post muz tag....!!!
system down oso nvm muz came back juz to tag...u tag i will tag yours =)